Where am I?

Once again, more chaos, more of not knowing what I want out of life, more of not knowing who my true friends are, more of not knowing who I can truly trust. More of not knowing where my passions lie. More not knowing who I am. This is supposed to happen to me, right? Doesn't everyone go through this in college? Because I'm totally fucked if I'm the only one.

Also, today is Halloween, which is only the best holiday ever! And for once I'm not being sarcastic- I freaking love Halloween. It's my favorite holiday. I mean it's just beyond me how someone could love all the joy and warm-fuzzy feelings of Christmas (feelings which news flash- don't exist and are fake!) more than the gloom and doom of Halloween! Like I said, I must be pretty demented. But to me, Halloween gas always been more realistic, more of an accurate celebration of humanity than the goodness of Christmas. I mean, people aren't good all the time ergo, the joy of Christmas is a pathetic lie.

Anyways... I get on to the things that have actually made me happy lately. It's been a while since I've posted so I'll think back over the past couple of days.

1.) 70 degrees on Halloween! Hell yes! I'm so excited that all the little trick-or-treaters will actually have a pleasant experience this year!
2.) Getting all of my homework done for the weekend... has this ever happened?
3.) Having a great friend that until this year I didn't appreciate. Thank you John, for being one of the only people who has made me feel secure when I am with you. Thank you.
4.) My mom sending me pictures of my adorable little sister throughout the day. Mom, this really maintains my sanity, so thank you.
5.) Getting my boy craziness back! And man, is it in full swing!
6.) Finding a research project that I find truly fascinating! Yay for nerding out to the Bosnian War of 1992-1995.
7.) Letting go of the toxicity in my life. Finding my self-dignity again.
8.) Having a cute Halloween costume.
9.) Freaking Jim's Wings! DELICIOUS!
10.) Millie LeSage
11.) Jennifer Kitty LeSage
12.) John LeSage
13.) Courtney Lutton
14.) Brenna McNeil
15.) Max Daigle
16.) John Tiggemen
17.) Nice gay people
18.) It's Halloween and it's beautiful outside. How could I not be happy in this moment?