Another crappy day. More people telling me how horrible I am. Being reminded of other people who think I'm horrible.
I'm giving up. Letting go. Letting it ride. No more expectations for myself or for others.
Maybe then I can live happily and peacefully.
You know what else I've been thinking a lot about today? How quickly things can change. Permanence is a complete fallacy. You can wake up feeling good, ready to take on a productive day and with one look, one comment, one conversation, one little mishap, things can change completely. It's amazing how fleeting any one emotion can be.
The hopeful spin to this is that those bad feelings are also impermanent. The storm will indeed pass- and soon.
I think I need to start living in the now. I need to recognize that every moment is a miracle, every moment beautiful and unique. Even the bad moments are all of these things. But the crux of it all is that no matter what the feeling, it and all it's magnificence, it's beauty, it's uniqueness is fleeting, and will end. Observing and truly living in the moment is the only way to achieve any sort of inner peace and happiness. Dwelling on the past or trying to foresee the future will only bring pain and anxiety.
Be mindful and generous. That's my message for today.
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